“My mind is goin' thru changes/"

These were the words that sung in my head as I awoke this morning. Ledisi sings these lyrics in her jam, Goin Thru Changes from her "Turn Me Loose album. She tells of her role as a potential cheating spouse/girlfriend and seemingly friendly (rogue) man that hits her “need spot.” We all want to be needed by another…opposite sex since we are designed that way but the flaw to that is at times we compromise to a dog lap while being played like fiddles on a stomping porch in Mississippi. What we do for love or summin like it! For the simple whiff of it even when we know deep down in our hearts it’s no more than lust on a popsicle stick! I resolve to longer do this since I know my value. I may bite but I am not compromising. Out wait the lip service til’ I am absolutely sure of it’s motive then of course, act accordingly. It’s about what’s best for me! Self-preservation at all times because in the cipher of life, folk can come along and attempt to stir dirt in yo’ pudding then you got a problem! I have been going through changes; changes that are chiseling at every acre of me. Value can be accused of being misplaced; say Amen! How much do we value ourselves? How much? I am my savoir, so to speak. I see me as the only person who can get me that degree so that I may upgrade from this apartment to a house and a 777 FICO! Me! To have a man a long side riding out the waves of life with me is a perk and a spec-TACULAR blessing! (I want it!) ain’t gon lie. I vibed to Ledisi’s, Going thru Changes this morning and this sista’s voice is strong rich and powerful coming through to effect (my hands up in the air, finger snapping, singing along!) Its lyrical content resonates and “grown woman” talk is the only way to describe the air waves that pulsate and pour into me. She speaks of what many men & women go through everyday! My point of this write is to get “us” thinking as to what we really need and want for ourselves and how accomplishing that with integrity and vigor, by denying ourselves at times, can secure that. It's okay to go through changes. It really is.

Personally speaking, “My mind is going thru changes”/ and I welcome it. wOOsa!






Going Through Changes, Ledisi (a story.)

Oh, baby! I wish that I could stay/ but staying here confuses me more
 So I'll go cuz there someone else who cares for me like you do/
You are my friend and I don't wanna cross the line/
It's so easy to make you mine I keep you pushing you away/
 cuz you give me what I miss at home!
I'm goin' thru changes and how do I let you go?! (let you go)
 My mind is goin' thru changes/ (going thru some changes) yeaa, yeaa
And I can't let him go!
Please don't touch me there/ temptation wants to rule me
 but I can't do what my body is calling out for/
I'm so confused! You know what I like and you wanna give me all of you/
And I think about it too but I keep goin' thru these changes
 Cuz there's so much that I miss at home!
I'm goin' thru changes how do I let you go
(I gotta get it together)!
My mind is goin' thru changes/ “And I can't let him go!”
I know what you want/
I know what you want!
Everything about us will change/ gonna change
Everything I feel says here with you/...
I wanna stay here with you I don't really know what to do/
I don't know what to do I can't get nothing at home!
Nothing!
The more I think about it I'm so confused/
 so confused I'm goin' thru some changes!
I'm goin' thru changes/ how do I let you go?!
My mind is goin' thru changes/ (some changes) and I can't let him!
I'm goin' thru changes(don't know what to do.. don't know)
 “how do I let you go?”
My mind is goin' thru changes (goin' thru some changes)
And I can't let him!”
I'm goin' thru changes!