I'm Smiling..

"At times I forget what I look like..

..I am so into deciphering the invisible." Seriously, I don’t put a lot of thought into my outer shell and I mean that in terms of humility. "I dote over my hair, nails, lord knows my 35 year old feet, skin, eating habits, water intake but to me, it’s all about what’s in one’s heart and soul that exude and produce a beautiful external. “it’s-all-about-me” is but a vanity blink away.

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"I am already impulsive", so intensely til’ it at times it overwhelms me and I have to fall back. But I like riding that wave of "instinctual feeling; it's intoxicating!" What takes place is a flood in my soul thus when I love, I love with heat and ice(others&passions) but if there is even a hint of uncertainty/doubt I cower into a cave of lepers where no one will dare go to retrieve me. Soon I am at home and the distance between me and the inflictor/beautiful becomes tolerable as I observe the lepers about me covered in pustules and rotting limbs. It restores my sanity through their cheerfulness because it is only their outer that is disturbing. Inside, they are gods of their God and it is there I seek/need to connect.
Beauty is a powerful and deceiving quality. Like Samson was with Delilah, we could loose our strength on it’s pulse alone. I am more than my face; my body. "I am my soul, spirit and mind." I am aware and growing from the root of my being into a beautiful tree with many branches as to represent the many extensions of me; not as to over power or deceive but rather to lead and grow..

to smile at a stranger, say, “Good Morning..” (I use discretion.. folk crazy). My outer is my sculptor’s way of getting your attention so you may lend an ear. Never judge a  book by it’s cover; open it up then read the proem FIRST! It's contents are personal thus revealing! Read me?