2 days before my 35th..1 day before published.

What is healthy? What is that look that goes beyond the average, say moderate looking external? “Why does truth linger when you hear it?” Tearing the hidden to bits and pieces and bits and pieces and bits and pieces, til..” I look at this page and it makes me nauseous. Ill. Abusing my mental, that’s all I am doing. An empty trash bag floating about space bt hell and heaven. I want instruction when I don’t want to hear, but I need to. Cage myself from Self and am left standing in my own testosterone, this black woman.

..ate a oatmeal raisin cookie with nothing to drink, but thirsty for destiny, not men. not you. Sister Soul: Jill Scott sings her blues of, “Love Rain Down On Me.” I say, “Destiny, rain down on me.” empty and filled simo. gorged. synchronized in sync and out. and in and out. Too bad I prefer life in “raw.” Like tight jeans gives the appearance of having an ass, like muffin tops robs one of a nice frame, like lies separate folk, like disabilities disable the (abled), so does.. the interpretation of any given situation depends on the mindset of the individual. We are all different . “No 2 souls are alike, no matter the similarities.” my kindred Erykah Badu has nice frame-work, though I do not have her body type, mine is nice as well. Lyrically, she Neptune. Jill Scott has one the most beautiful face's. Those eyes, yet, mind are beautiful as well. Lyrically, she Saturn Jack Davey is and electronically “hot” and “bothered” in tune as I. Lyrically, she's Mars. Leela James is soulful and spirit rockin, raspy powerful, I feel. Lyrically, she's Sun Nina Simone was rioting/political/ raw Billie Holiday  was steadily sorting through it, prick by prick, revealing, “God bless the child that's got it’s own! (they supernova) I am me, my own._Moon.